crack | writeinktober entry #3

the goodbye right after hello..

the goodbye right after hello
a crack

expectations and words not kept
a second crack

faltered smiles and unconcerned eyes
a third crack

letting them in, unhealed;
letting them go, healed

countless cracks within her
countless cracks that filled her

cracks that broke her,
cracks that will transform her

she hopes…
..until the next crack.

pattern | writeinktober entry #2

sweet little Alice, went down the rabbit hole

Alice, where are you headed?
will you meet with the Cheshire Cat?

you left to have fun at the tea party,
but you stayed stuck while the time slowly ticks

Alice, why are you running? were you trying to hide?
No, Absolem can not help you with his wise words now

lone like the Jabberwock, you could have been friends
but you chose to slay him with your own hands

Alice, your bloodstream’s filled and burning you again,
you’re spiraling back to that same old pattern

eyes are hazy yet they speak with madness
will you answer The Hatter’s riddle soon?

sweet little Alice, went down the rabbit hole,
further and further away you fall.

gold | writeinktober entry #1

Wildfire. Fireheart. Light-bringer.

she stood there glowing,
gold ember enveloping her

a sign that the fight within has been won
a fight to regain herself

finally made peace with the demons inside
acceptance of who she was, is and will be

burning eyes filled with calm rage
set to strike the darkness outside.

Written In The Sky | 16th of June

Our friendship will be eternal,
Like stars in all the galaxies.

A linked soul,
The Sun to your Moon,
Air to Water; Earth to Fire,
Elements complementing one another.

A colorful thread we chose not to cut,
In time, it will only get stronger.
The comfort that we’ll both be there,
With eyes that hold no judgment.

Alone yet together,
Fate and choices that will lead us there.
You’ll utter the words “It was worth it.”
And I’ll smile because it is.

Our friendship will be eternal,
Like stars in all the galaxies.
Black holes through black holes,
Our bond will pass through dimensions.

Thank you for your friendship.
Amidst all this chaos,
In between the cries and the laughs,
I am grateful to call you my friend.

Happy Birthday to one of my soulmates, my ‘best friend’ (I guess? kekeke),
my kambal, I’m here to stay, you can’t get rid of me.

Highway Regret | 04.25.19

It will haunt you always, all the ‘what ifs’ and ‘should haves’, the knowing that you could have helped but still chose to walk away.

You were driving on your way back and suddenly; it feels like you’re inside a dream. Everything was in slow motion. You can see all the little details of what is happening – the brake lights, the skidding of the car, the collision and both cars breaking into pieces, a man trying to get out of their car, the guy that didn’t second guess and run to help and all those other cars passing by. Your world stood still, and the sound of a car horn meant for you woke you up from the trance you were in.

You thought once, twice, thrice, heck, even more. You thought of what you should do. Should you stop just like that guy? Should you call for help? What’s the right thing to do? Cars honking again, passing you by. If you could only stop thinking and just get off the car. In the end, you only did what is convenient for you, just like the others, you continued driving and passed them by.

It will haunt you always, all the ‘what ifs’ and ‘should haves’, the knowing that you could have helped but still chose to walk away. It will haunt you as you wonder if everyone’s okay and if someone did call for help.

All that talk of dreams to help other people… they’re all just that – all talk without action. And in choosing not to help, you realized that you’re a coward. You’re a coward and you’re selfish. You only help others if you’ll gain something from it.

You can’t undo anything. You can’t go back and change what happened. You can’t turn your car around now. But I hope you learn from it. You’ll regret not doing anything this time but if something arises again and a help is needed, please don’t do the same thing, don’t be that someone again. Don’t hesitate anymore. Choose to be a good person and take action.

I can only pray for them now, please be okay.
And I’m sorry that I didn’t help.