written musings of n

I feel like I’m spiraling again and I don’t know how to fix it. Every time I go to work, I feel like crying. Socializing isn’t helping. Posting on social media isn’t changing anything. The dread comes back as quickly as a few good laughs. Reading isn’t helping; listening to music, barely. I need something to distract myself because I don’t understand why I’m feeling like this. There’s no reason. I don’t know the reason. I even went outside and walked, but my mind was still unclear. I started praying again, asking for guidance, but nothing was working. Nothing. My tolerance is getting lower and my patience is getting shorter. Everything is a trigger — Everything and Nothing.